Running Away

Originally posted October 6, 2015

When I graduated high school in 2012, I debated between attending Southwestern Adventist University or Oakwood University. Ultimately, because my father was sick, I chose Southwestern because it was closer. My father passed away in the beginning of the 2013 spring semester. It was and still is very difficult for me deal with. Truth is, I’m still not dealing with it. I put my feelings in a box and just leave them there. In the fall of 2013 I transferred to Oakwood University. 

Things were still difficult, but again I chose not to deal with my emotions. I began dating this guy and eventually we became engaged. Around October of 2014, things in my relationship took a horrible turn. It wasn’t until July of 2015, a year before the date we chose to get married, that I ended the relationship and called off the wedding. I kept hidden, just like my feelings, that I was in an abusive relationship. I was too embarrassed and I honestly didn’t know what to do. 

After GC, I was listening to a sermon about Jacob & Esau. When Jacob was wrestling with God, the “wrestling” was an act of mercy. If by one touch He was able to dislocate Jacob’s hip, then that entire night, He could have easily dislocated every bone in Jacob’s body. So when God asked Jacob his name, it was a chance for Jacob to finally stop running. All of his life Jacob had been running. So in the dead of night, God asked Jacob his name. God had to bring him back to the place he originally messed up. When Jacob’s Father asked him for his name, he replied saying he was Esau. God had to bring Jacob back to his original mistake in order to bless him. No more lies, no more running. 

That’s when I realized that I had been running. Running from everything that I was dealing with. God has brought me back to the place I originally was in order to save me. He has blessed me in many ways and I am extremely thankful. Spiritually, here at Southwestern, I would like to see more open forums for people to come together and pray on each other’s behalf. There’s power in numbers. Everyone is dealing with massive situations and they keep silent because they don’t know where to go. 

by Niyah Peltie

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